sian 2.......

Now it's time for me to show you all how sian I am. Everybody have been busy mugging and the there's practically no "after school lunch" with my classmates at all. But nevertheless, it doesn't matters much to me. I guess I'm the only one still playing hard instead of working hard now, that's why hongwei keeps doubting if I had been studying secretly at home. Well, the answer is obviously no!

Anyway, I realise many people are so worried about not being able to get into the U because of achieving undesired grades for the prelims. Actually I think most of the worries are redundant, why? It's because the prelims are meant to KILL YOU!! I've actually got 12/40 for my chemistry paper 1. See how badly I've scored! But, I've just done the A level 06 June paper 1 and guess what, I've easily scored 32/40. I've realised how much easier the A level standards are. Immediately, I see hope in me. I know I can get at least a C grade for chemistry in the final round despite failing it for umpteen times until I've become real numb about it. Now I'm still waiting for my chem paper 2, hoping to push me to AO...How pathetic.

Meanwhile, I'm also waiting for another paper 2-PHYSICS!! I suppose this is the paper that makes my heart beats the most. Combining my paper 1 and 3, I'm currently on borderline A, so if there's anything wrong with my paper 2, I'll lose my only hope of achieving an A since I've screwed up my maths and only got a C.

Reading up to this point, I'm sure most of you will be surprised by the language used in this entry. This is my first time posting an entry with almost decent English. It's because before I've decided to make this post, I've read a story of railway in Singapore i suppose. But in that story, the place described doesn't sound like Singapore at all! It sounded more like some rural country. The language used by the author is so unfamiliar to me, and so, I've decided to make a post with that kind of language. BUT, I've failed miserably no doubt. Comparing the 2 pieces, they're simply a difference of heaven and earth(not the green tea). This can be differentiated by just comparing the two titles.

If anyone were to recognise what I'm refering to, just take it as a compliment for the author. Typing this entry has made me realise that it is really very difficult to express myself with this language. I can't use words like "haha, lol" and my favourite punctuation "........". So the conclusion is, Singlish is still the best for me!

Languishing.

Argh...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I am so sian leh I tell you. I can't describe to you guys how sian I feel. It is as if life is ebbing OUT of me and I am simply languishing, dying, fading, weakening, losing. That vivid spark of energy dissipating. It's just 1 month away. But time seems to have a funny way of peeping over our shoulders and reminding us painfully that the A levels is approaching.

I STILL don't know how I did for Prelims. According to my teachers, my performance was disappointing. It made me think. " Performance". Are we just actors, thespians on this stage and our performance rendered successful or unsuccessful by the applause or non-applause of the audience? Why should we be subjected to the expectations of others? It reminds me that time is running out for me. My performance in this stage is only temporary and transient. I will be kicked out of stage soon if I don't perform. And performing is the only thing I can do now.


Hmm.. Rainbow, you know what? My class is directly opposite in behaviour to yours! Today we had a mini Sports day where we flocked to our friend's hse in Bukit Timah to play basketball, soccer and to swim. Before that we had lunch at this place which is supposedly the first creator of Milo Dinosaur. During our lunch, we talked about our holiday plans as though A levels already over.

Later, me and 2 of my friends explored the Malayan Railway that was apparently linked to Keppel Road. The railway tracks still work! It's so interesting. We walked on old beaten tracks and savoured the antique-looking guard house with its little
windows and old-fashioned fans. Abandoned tyres, railway seats and tangled wires decorated the ground where tiny sparrows perched and hopped about them with such tameness and innocence. When we accidentally went over the lines, the Malay guard shouted at us and ordered us off the track. Haha... Later, we walked further down the track with jungle at our sides. There was a HUGE, GIANTIC blue house with the borders made so high that nobody could climb over it. The ever-watchful camera gave us a piercing stare. Later, to our greatest joy, the TRAIN ARRIVED! We were so darn lucky! The train was very much vacant and I remembered seeing the Malay guard who shounted at us forbeing in the front of the train. It was a beautiful train. It looked neat and non-imposing but rather out of place with the urban sprawl about us. With blue and grey lines etched by its sides, the railway tracks shook under its weight. People in the train were in amusing positions. Some of them had their heads on the windows with one lady having a mouth opened so big that I swear I could just throw a cockroach in without her even knowing. Others were at attentive positions and they smiled at us with a look of knowingness that we belong to the present urbanized world while they, choosing such an outdated mode of transport were simply time travellers to the past, anachronisms. We waved to them like some crazy obsessed teenagers and they waved back... Haha... It was really very fun. The whole experience overwhelmed me with nostalgia for the past, for what is old where what is now abandoned and unwanted is actually loaded with meaning. When I see old places, I think of the people past who sat in those seats and I imagined them with flowerly dresses and tall hats that characterized the 60s and I try to think of what they would have said to each other. They are like ghosts that are never exorcised because they remain etched as memories to the railway rain, to the tracks, to the jungle, to the people who still run them. But they are in risk of being forgotten, being wasted and vanishing in the cesspool of history.

Hahaha... Ooppps. Perhaps you guys see me as being too " literary". But I hope you guys learn to love the past too. Anyone wants to visit old places with me after A levels? I can bring you guys around Singapore. But it is only for the adventurous hor...... Not for shopping lovers. HAHA.



ARRRRR...... SEE you guys around!

Something happy

wheee people..seeing u all feel so depressed..i've decided to share with u my secret recipe to happiness..

that is..the new kfc meal..that one that is similar banditto pocket but with cheeese.. i saw it on the advertisements yesterday..

and i'm gg to try it later! heh..

try it..because cheese makes u happy. bleh

ok i will continue rotting..miss me darlings

On a friday afternoon

hei hei, jus felt lyk making a post before i go tackle my maths paper. gt back my econs todae n wasn't satisfied, bt aft all e upsets and all, i guess i'm more motivated to work harder to achieve wat i wan rather den to sink in to depression...afterall dat helps more doesnt it....bt anyway i mus say dat aft e exams i suddenly miss u all le! ahahaha.....okai i noe u all wan to sae i pangseh u all last fri....bt den i oso bo bian de, cos my date wif my fren suddenly change date n i agreed to go out wif her first...oso my mum has been anxious[a better phrase for nagging] abt me going home late......so sorry guys i pangseh....hope can meet up wif u all next time!

okai so wat happens lately is dat my class ppl are working hard...really hard. bt den sometimes dere'll be dis competitive lot who likes to peep at others' grades n all.....which i dun understand y. wat's e point abt winning all bt unable to achieve wat ur own aim? a whole class failing and u passing alone doesnt make u superior as dere are owaes better ones out dere...and dere's dis guy in my class, which is sort of disliked by e guys as he lyks to put ppl down to make himself feel better, for e.g. looking down on ppl who scored lower den him and putting dem down due to deir poorer grades...its e first time i've seen guys being political, so i guess dis guy is really something to be able to make himself being ostracized. bt anyway, jus to share dis wif u all....ahahhaa....

o ya, last week i've jus finished watching GUNG, e show which channel U is going to show in oct....nt bad actually, so dose who are interested can go watch...bt i mus warn u all first dat though it looks lyk a romantic comedy, e content is actually quite chen2 zhong4...nevertheless its still worth watching....and e ending song is nice! [its called 'you...i'm a fool' by stay, u all can go find....ahahha]

okai todae my post very long, i noe u all wan to say i ali liao....i shall go talk to my maths paper nw....u guys take cccaaarrrreeeee!

aha..mich told me to post something..so here comes somthing.. SOMETHING!!!!

happy belated pretty birthday to me!! heh cos i jus did my facial two days ago..

anyway just like to share with u guys my special day.

initially, i thought i'll be alone today..but it's definitely nt possible because i know that everybody will be snatching to celeb with me !

i got a surprise when alot of ppl turned up when i least expected it..woohoo went to newton circus for a sumptuous feast..lol..i think they planned a surprise for me..but it was nt carried out in the end..

after that we went to rot at coffeebean, pampering ourselves with cheesecake etc..actually we wanted to go to jeanie's hse..but ! my dad forbidded me to stay overnite outside..wth..zzz

yah and here so i am, blogging in the wee hours. now intending to stay up to watch troublesomenight..fyi..it's a ghost story..but meant to be lame..

arghhhh babyyy i can't belive my special day is gone jus like that..ok i'm lazy to type le..bcos my show is starting..will tell u guys personally when i see ur nez time..and i hope it will be soon !

btw..it kinda feels weird celeb my bdae without u all ! hahaha.

thanks for ur well wishes..and may u guys be as happy as me ALWAYS regardless of any obstacles..

PS thanks indian for ur birthday call exactly at 0000. it made my day..and i alr finished watching ur video..haha the rhythm is kinda slow..and i almost fell asleep..but it's nice ! babyyy

shall end here..take care..candy dreams~~~

Shushu HAPPY BDAE!

shushu!!! happy bdae!! dun sae i insincere la... i yest fell aslp at 8!!! so early la.... but chi dao hao guo mei dao rite? bleah... n hope u enjoy yr dae! n like our v early presents 2.. =)

n i gt back most of results lo... here it goes lo...
bio: 47/100
maths: 58/100
chem: 63/100
left phy n gp haven get back lo... quite satisfied wif my results except bio la... i cant imagine wat i ll get for gp la.. it's a nightmare for me.. bleah.. n sorrie for posting abt studies.. hehe..

n michie.. juz heck care dat person la.. nt worth yr anger n afraidness.. muz cheer up k! we r here for u! no matter what... that's what friends are for~

pardon me for d short post cos i'm inexperienced in bloggin.. hehe.. still bu xi guan bloggin yea..

muz work hard lo! jiayou! love ya guys! =)

The Amazing meganame generator..

haha..i did this while takin a break frm chem...i'm seeing starrrssssssssss!!! i want to burn all these books...preferbly..burn down my whole school n whole of cambridge...received some papers today, it was expected but im quite upset over it coz it was realllly loww...with juz 35days left...how am i goin to make it? on top of that, there's limited time too..we have a maths test this fri, one on nex tue, re prelim chem paper 3 on nex sat...i think there's oso a chem paper2 trial n mock examssssssss....






how am i going to survive through all this????



everybody..pls sms mi occasionally to make sure im still alive n living! support and encouragement from friends are very much welcome in this stressful period...

haha..ok..juz to share with ur...hehe...

Lye Si Lin's Aliases

Your movie star name: Cheesecake Wong Your fashion designer name is Lye Rome Your socialite name is Linlin Singapore Your fly girl / guy name is L Lin Your detective name is Pigglets Serangoon Junior College Your barfly name is Fish N Chips None Your soap opera name is Si Buangkok Your rock star name is Sour Power Jaguar Your Star Wars name is Lyecho Lin... Your punk rock band name is The Paranoid Gladiator

The Amazing Meganame Generator

Days of struggle

Gt back my chi lit paper. so i gt 78.5/100, aft combining wif P1 i gt 72/100. wa......nt bad hor, A leh.......bt den, dere's something in dis world called MODERATION. and so dat's wat e chi teachers did. and everyone gt 7 marks deducted fr deir total score. so in e end i gt 65 instead. its nt so much abt e grades though, bt its e thought dat's more scary - e thought dat getting 70 is nt enough to gt an A.

If there are no longer any gurantees nor limits, den hw much harder do we haf to work before we can gt wat we set out to achieve? e work dat we haf is endless and all we are left wif is a disappointed heart inside a tired shell....

The days of struggle go on and on....

THE bhb birthday girl !

Hey Shushu,

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!! May your dreams come true.... and perhaps you have achieved your target of 40 people already? Take care!

By the way, this movie is for you. Go watch it. Everybody else, go see it too!

We Send You Our Blessings


Love,
Mich =)

FRIENDS? ha!

Today was a bad day.


What are friends? Friends are people who cheer you on during tough times and they are the ones who always believe you and trust in you and never give up on you. No matter what. Friends are special people and they trust without a shadow of a doubt that you can be at the best of your ability. They never fail to make you smile nor do they ever make you cry. Friends are also unique because they never ever rub sand in your wounds and would rather be unhappy themselves than to cause grevious, vengeful hurt on you. Friends protect each other. Friends know what to say at the right time and what not to say. Friends don't cross known boundaries.


I found that I am still disturbed by the comments of some friends who apparently crossed the boundary with me when he or she commented that since I do well normally, " scar ly" I flunk and do badly for my A levels. My heart stopped when he or she said that and now I am afraid. How can someone ever say such something to curse your friend especially when you know she was in a bad mood already because she screwed up her Econs paper. I am afraid that this is a prophecy and that what she or he said is going to come true. That friend is vicious. That friend knows how to hit that right button to make me hurt.

I think the lesson to learn from this is that I got to be aware who are my real friends. People who do not necessarily have to brave hell and fire for me but more importantly, they are the ones who really believe in me and who will always be there for me. Unconditionally.


A second lesson would probably to remember what Eleanor Roosevelt said. Never any let anyone make you inferior without your consent. I'm open to say that I still am scared, I still am trying to cross that mental obstacle. But I would now be more wary of that friend I guess. I would now make my mental hulk stronger, impenetrable to harsh words.


Cheers!

omggggggg

omggggggggg............shavonne got 90/100 for maths paper 2! (the stats paper)...today in class..my math teacher was tellin us about her...her aim is to finish every single question in the math tys...n she's APPROACHIN that aim soon...omgggg....i need her brain cells...she's determined n reali hardworking!! someone pass me a knife too... think my chem mcq is gone case...math p2, chem p3 n econs p3 too....appparently...the no.1 in my class for chem...he got veri low for chem p1 n 3 huh...what is goin to happen to the rest of us?! jiayu say her class..onli two PASSED chem p3....dotssssssssssssss...

nvm....jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!!! we wun know till the last min..wahahaha...my math teache say...there's always some heima(dark horse) each year..some of the low achievers..they might end up doin reali well! have faith in yourself...stay hopeful always!

Hello ppl..i'm here to blog finally. i bet you guys must have missed me terribly !

Firstly i'll like to apologize for being unable (not unable, but i don't know how) to fix the tagboard. Can some blogging expert help?!

Seeing you guys struggle for prelims and the coming A's really makes my fragile heart go out to all of you. but anyway, i'm neither having A's nor prelims. LOL ! envious?

nothing much to update..my life's being as boring as it is. working working working..and bloody hell. i'm quite upset with my job and i've got a good mind to sack my boss really soon.

my head's feeling groggy and legs feeling sour right now. sigh~~~ i wish i had tons of money to spend on my BIRTHDAY which is 12 hours away. please rmb to wish me happy birthday even though exams are more impt alright??!!

i look forward to seeing new posts soon, i mean you guys writing something else other than studies! and oh ya..goodie luck for results.

mirage loves all of you. candy dreams~~~~

hello everybody!!!!!

hello everyone!! the one and only unclegreen is here!! haha.. i shall make some comments on this blog first.. the timer is cool! although i makes no effect on me.. the title of this blog..erm.. it's unique..like wad i've told mich, only u can think of this name..everybody agree?? ok, next, the blogskin is simple, but i like! haha.. simplicity may not be impressive, but it is still the best.. and mich, that inspirational post doesn't look inspirational to me leh.. haha.. i know u ppl are waiting for the tagboard to dots me..

hmmm.. it seems that most of u all have gotten back quite a number of the papers.. and i'm glad to see most of u all have done reasonably well for the prelims.. mind u, it's prelims!! like wad adam khoo has said, it's meant to kill u.. A level shouldn't be a problem for most of u..

my day started with going through the maths paper 2 statistics questions.. well.. i've no talent in stats.. actually after going through, i realise it's becos i didn't do tutorial for stats.. lol, so it's a gonecase for maths paper 2.. the only paper i've got back today is physics paper 3.. it's a 82/110.. my highest score ever.. haha! i think i'm just lucky.. i wasn't much excited when i first see my score, maybe becos i'm busy collecting scripts etc for those who were absent today.. instead, those who were astonished, excited, amazed are my classmates..so a little commotion started within my class... anyway, that's just paper 3... hopefully i do well for paper 1 and 2...

argh, i'm still waiting to see how badly i've failed for chemistry...

Silin's here!!

people!!! hehe...i got back my papers too....i passed my econs mcq!! scored the same as ah neh.. 16/30...arhaha...first time in 2 yrs!!!!den maths p1 was 44/100...lots of careless mistakes!! cld hv passed the paper...made silly mistakes...muz not repeat those mistakes again! but i did improved la..hehe..durin mid yr..my marks for maths p1 was onli half of wat i got now...but maths p2 is goin to be worse than thisssssssssss.....tml i'll be gettin chem p3 n econs p3 ar, ECONSSSSSSSSS....i totally misinterpreted one essay qn la...i duno wat to expect..*faints* i got back gp too! hm...compo i got 24/50(HIGHEST IN MY TWO YRS TOO! n the thing was...i didnt reali ans the qn) compre was 19.5/50...so total= 43.5...but my super nice sexy gp tcher will try to find extra marks for mi..so that i can jump frm D7 to C6!!! wish me luck!!!! though my results wasnt as great whn compared to others..but i've learned to stop comparin...i think as long as there's improvement..thats already good..hehe...

btw...today adam khoo came to our sch to speak for one hour...all of us have attended his session b4 right...rmb he have this habit of writin on majong paper? duno why...the stand..tgt with THAT stack of papers was found in one of the classrooms that my class went to... i took the whole stack of papers home!!!! wahahahahaha..so now..i have the ULTIMATE SECRET FORMULA FOR SUCESS...all HAND WRITTEN by dearest mr adam khoooo!! (hm..maybe i'll burn one of the few pages n drink it up! den i can pass with flyin colors)... this guy..he took f.math,mathc,econs n phys..got D E F F in prelims...GUESS WHAT?! he got A A A B for A levels!!! omgggggg....anione wan to take a few papers frm mi to burn n drink? PAPERS UP FOR GRAB!!! ok....i was abit retarded today...GXW..

jiayou for A levels people! start plannin ur schedule now..hehe..im goin to do it later..jiayou!
lastly...can someone PLSSSSSS...help design or change the blogskin????(SHU...stop lookin around im referin to u...hehe) or are there ani kind souls that wants to do it...?
SILIN ROCKS.....
*huggiex*
p.s.. i'm amazed! i don't reali like bloggin, this is my first post..n i actually typed so much! i LOVE this blog! there's finally an outlet for me to voice n vent my frustrations...hehe

shiqi is here too!

hey ppl! although i nt enthu abt blog de , bt i simply love this blog! hehe.. thanks michie for creating tis! =) seems like i gt back much more papers lehx... n mine is quite cham..... ok lai lo...
bio paper 2 = 48/100
phy paper 1 = 38/60
phy paper 2 = 47/90
chem paper 1 = 28/40
chem paper 2 = 56.5/100
yup tt's all.. v cham rite? most of dese i gt alot of marks untouched huh! becos i nv chiong to finish dem.. shldnt have take my own sweet time yea.. nvm i wun repeat tis mistake again! alot more to go.. hope dey ll b better... n i wish everyone all d best for deir results too! we jiayou together for As too k!

ESCAPE.

When tough times arrive, one feels the inclination to escape.
To escape to the waters of serenity, to float without a worry in the world.



I wish I could just grab my bags and leave. Travel brings possibilities, tiny peepholes of new opportunities. When can I leave? "Fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars."




When Man is restricted, oppressed, suppressed. A wall builts up and towers above us so meanacingly. All we got to do now is to find a ladder and cross the wall. But why is it so difficult?



Purple waters represent romance.




Somehow, somewhere, sometime. Nature will point me in the right direction and I will find my way through the shrouds of doubt, despair and disappointment to emerge triumphant.



Let's hang in there =)

wenxin is here!

hmmm....todae i gt back my econs mcq n chi paper 1.......e econs mcq was ok, better den expected, gt 23/30....bt nw i'm starting to get worried abt my econs paper 2 & 3.....cos whenever e first paper dat i gt back is okai, those dat follow will disappoint me.....my chi, GOODNESS, for e first time in my life i FAILED my chi compo.........i did badly at times bt den nv once did i fail........so it was quite a shock........so e whole paper combine everything i gt 65.5/100..........such a waste.....bt its a gd reminder for me to be cautious during e next exams too.........so u guys mus be careful too! dun be lyk me........so tmr will be another round of shocks and surprises, wif my fav maths paper coming back to me.......anyway wish u all gd luck for e coming days! mus jiayou okai! :]

Welcome ~~~~

Hey guys..

This post is to inform you that this is to be a place for us to exchange our thoughts and feelings... I know the timer is scary. It's frightening for me! But it will serve as a good reminder for us to study hard, work hard and do well for A levels! Cheers ppl ! Please make use of this forum k to update on our lives etc. Let me be the first to start the ball rolling...


Today I got back my Econs MCQ. I got 16/30. Not superb or anything but I am relieved. During the exam, I thought " DIE DIE DIE". Out of 30 qns, I practically tikum 15. So I guess I have to thank my lucky stars I did not fail. But I guess I got to work harder now to do well!!! History was disappointing. NEED I SAY MORE?

Hope you guys did better than me!!!


love,

michelle